We know that grace is a constant, in that Abba is not whimsical as we humans; deciding some days to be more gracious and other days to stand back and let us squirm. The squirming usually comes from us stepping back and trying to do something, or figure things out ourselves. Sometimes the squirming may come from ignorance (not stupidity) being ignorant of the Word, of our Abba given authority in Yeshua’s name, or our own Abba given abilities to deal with life and its vicissitudes.
We also should understand that the ‘suddenlies’ are mostly actualities of divine plan which had been designed and provided for long ago. In other words things or circumstances may take us by surprise or cause us to be off guard but they do not surprise nor alarm Abba one little bit. This life of faith is a journey full of moments but mostly those moments go along undetected, unheralded, unheeded. Yet there are those times when we have ‘Ah-has’, ‘wows’, for me ‘woo-hoos’. Is Abba more gracious in these times? Is He any more present in these times? (I do believe that there are times He manifests Himself perhaps causing Him to seem more accessible though we know He is always present, it just doesn’t look that way to us.)
Last night I had a woo-hoo of the spiritual kind. I admit I have woo-hoo moments in the physical realm fairly often since I like to celebrate life’s moments when I can; however my walk with Yeshua has been based on trust and relationship, more than feelings. I have complained before when everyone else seems to have holy shivers that though I know He’s there I ‘feel’ nada, at least discernibly. I’ve wondered if I were stunting my feelings, due to my ever questing mental processes. I’ve even had extensive conversations with Abba about these feeling lacks, in which He has told me, ‘I talk to you what more do you want?’ True, I would rather have conversation than ‘chills and thrills’ (It should be noted here that I am not disparaging anyone who does feel intensively His presence, truth be told I would say I envy you but I’m not supposed to envy people)
Last night and one other night within the last couple of months I have found myself at the computer, (playing spider which I do to unwind. It should be noted I mostly lose since I don’t want to pay attention to the game just have my hands and mind active while allowing my thoughts freedom) and suddenly my casual conversation with Abba has turned into a realization of how good (really really good) He is; and woo-hoo, I feel a joy welling up, springing forth spilling over into my language and usually into a dance. This may be followed by sitting with a possibly goofy looking (to anyone but Abba) smile on my face as I just can’t stop grinning. Last nights woo-hoo grace was I would say more intense than the one before perhaps due to extreme gratitude in that this was a second time for this occurrence and if there is a first and second then it just follows that there will probably be a third.
Pondering these two woo-hoo grace moments I suddenly realized it was not that Abba had manifest or made Himself more present (I still lost the solitaire game), it was that I had showed up, really, really. I had grasped a concept of His goodness which spilled into feeling it. This made me wonder how often are we waiting for Him to manifest, when He is actually just waiting for us to be present to the moment, to Him? When I manifest (become clearly revealed) to Him then I’ve removed the veil from my face allowing me to see, feel, hear Him as He always wants to be seen, felt, heard by us in this physical world in which we dwell. I understand that on this side we see through a veil of flesh but we often create veils out of many things which further cloak His presence from us. Two ordinary moments, two average spaces of time were transformed for me into present presence and joy which transcends any other woo-hoos, I’ve yet to experience were mine to treasure and the anticipation of more ordinary moments to become woo-hoos, well that’s a given.
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