Have you ever heard anyone say they just know that they know….? I’ve always said this is okay for the person knowing but it’s not a very good explanation to those who might want to know why or how or for someone wanting to share in the knowing. I’ve shared recently that I’ve had a couple of times of knowing intensively, to the innermost part of my being that Abba is good, feeling it till it spilled over into laughter and dance. I can now say recently I’ve known beyond hope, beyond tangible evidence that what He’s told me is without a doubt a done deal. It’s an intensity of experiencing the knowledge which spills over into a leaping of my spirit into thanksgiving beyond anything I’ve personally ever known. It’s as if faith leapt beyond all doubt beyond reason that says if I do this, if others do that then He can or He will…Perhaps it’s being able to suddenly see, feel and taste the evidence of what has to this point been unseen but promised, hoped for (Heb. 11:1) Trying to explain it is hard but since I am one that would love for others to explain what they experience in order to maybe get hints for my own process I’m trying here. I suppose it’s that faith has finally morphed into simple knowing, no question, no using faith to fight because you’ve set down faith for having seen it in spirit and you know its truth. Knowing it is true the praise, thanksgiving erupts in a torrent like a volcanic explosion of such force that it rocks your world but at the same time its intense heat melds your world together. Spirit and flesh meet on equal ground where believing becomes knowing and that knowing becomes experiencing (before hand) what has been promised and that experiencing is such a foretaste that you are then transported to a place of sheer grace where all creation is praising Him for it goes far beyond a single persons worship; it’s as if you were for a brief moment the mouth piece for all the praise that has and is going up. It’s finding me outside myself in that moment but never more fully being myself because praising Him is one of the inherent reasons for us to be in existence. This process I’ve tried to explain brings forth such a pure praise to Him for it is praise simply for Who He is (essence) more than for what one is expecting, it’s like a light suddenly comes on, a veil drops and you are praising Him because of Who He is, for the Who that gave the promise not because of the promise given. In that intense time of knowing you know Him a bit more than ever before and well that makes you praise and that leads to more knowing/experiencing and that leads to more praise……..
k
Friday, June 27, 2008
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
What's Up?
Recently I realized I was living life upside down. There was a really thought provoking song years ago that talked about living life upside down but it was more of a, we might just be getting it wrong message, and I agreed with it at that time. However lately as I found myself singing snatches of that song but it was in a positive note; not a we might be missing it thinking we’re okay, but we’re okay even though it looks like situationally (I know situationally is not a word but it fits well) that we might be missing it. One example is Abba has been telling me over and over that I need to be joyful which appears upside down since everything seems (stress on the word seems) like it’s horrific. He tells us in our services He is there but people are still sick, hurting, struggling so it doesn’t seem/feel like He’s with us as much as He appears to be with some others who are seeing manifestations of healings etc. He tells me I can and will fly but I’m having enough difficulty just walking around. He says we’ve made it but it still seems like nothing has changed. I want to make a confession and say that I’ve felt if I could just get everyone or someone to believe with me that what He’s saying is right that we might just see that things are indeed changing. This only brings frustration to me since I can’t make people believe or realize that the Kingdom of God does not come by observation (Luke 17:20-21) but it is within or may I say already here just waiting for us to acknowledge it/His presence. Mostly I think today that people are expecting manifestations of the Kingdom which do come but He really doesn’t want the stuff of the Kingdom to be the benchmark of knowing the Kingdom is here but is desiring the acknowledgement that He is indeed in our midst feeling or no, that what He is saying is true and when we get that part down then manifestations come and go but we are filled with the joy of the Lord no matter the situation. Another confession is, I keep saying to Abba I really would like to feel something because even when there are massive manifestations I rarely (almost never) feel anything, I just hear His voice. I learned a long time ago that I would indeed rather have His voice than a fleeting feeling but joy is a feeling right? Or is it? Joy is knowing that He is accomplishing what He says no matter the appearance, it’s a deep seated peace in the storm that allows one to come into His presence and there in His presence there is a joy that goes beyond feeling it’s His wonderful Self. So for me joy is not manifestations or good situations it’s Him, it is His voice, and knowing that He likes me to be with Him. That last part causes me to grin which goes beyond smiling in my book. What do I need fleeting feelings for when I have His voice? I’ve been intensely joyful when I’ve been in intense pain (last night for example) just knowing He’s with me and then voila, this morning (sometime or other I didn’t look at the clock) He started speaking to me about His plans for this move He’s already begun and woo-hoo I got really joyful, then I fell asleep; doesn’t sound like intense joy, however it is only His joy that allows me the peace to sleep and only those who know that I really don’t sleep much can relate to the joy that sleep brings to me. Sleep to me is literally going off alert, saying, I’m off duty now so I’m trusting that someone else is taking point. Why in the world do I not let Him take point more often? It’s the redeeming the time thingy, the do the work while you can, cover the earth with prayer cover….that drives me. It’s also the feeling that I’m responsible for doing what I can do so I somehow decided that I should do it cause I can. Now that I know that I’m living life upside which is really right side up in the spiritual connotation of things, I’m not waiting for feelings which might or might not ever come (since we depend too much on how we feel) and I’m taking Him at His word, and if He says it He must feel it right? I mean think of it folks if He says He’s here, He should know right? Would He say pray for someone if He was not planning on doing what He intends to do for them? Would He tell me don’t worry be joyful if my worrying could help anything? I’ve realized more and more lately as I let go He’s got my back, front and sides. He’s ordered my steps of late which such ease that I know I’m dancing with Him through what others are trudging through. I find I dance best with my eyes closed. Why, because I’m just following His lead, otherwise I’m trying to lead and I’m dancing with Him in heavenly places which means I’m upside down to most things on earth and hey, I like the view from up here. What’s up? Me!
k
k
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Speak Softly and Drop the Stick
Monday after our great Father’s Day weekend I was thinking that perhaps I should fast in order to break any lingering demonic issues that might hinder the open heaven that I had felt on Sunday. I did as is my wont and asked Abba about it. Generally when it’s my idea to fast for a spiritual purpose I make sure I’m in line with what He desires, there are other times I fast for discipline and then I might not check it out first. I went to the Scriptures for direction and voila, I got Proverbs 24:13-14. Eat honey, in other words don’t fast. I would remind you from my previous writing on Abba’s Day that He had given me the Scripture where Moshe strikes the rock and my heartrending, dramatic reaction that I had missed out on the Promised Land, the land that flows with milk and you got it, honey. Now here I was ready to sacrifice, to fast, to do whatever I could to make sure the open heaven stayed open and He tells me not necessary. Not only did I take verse 13 to heart but the getting wisdom in verse 14 has been a pursuit of mine, His wisdom and admittedly some of the earthbound stuff as well for I see Him in it all. It didn’t take a bulldozer to push aside my preconception of what He might be telling me nor did it take a dump load truck of grace, a gentle nudge did it. I knew what He was telling me and I believe others as well at this time, there are seasons to fast and press for the promise, for the deliverance, for the enemy to back off and other times…Okay plain and simple don’t strike the Rock, speak to Him, that about ties it up in a nutshell. I was, without realizing it, feeling as if I had to violently take, what He wanted me to simply ask Him for. I know my tendency is to overachieve, not to try to work for grace but to ‘do my part’ in whatever in order to expedite it. I admit I am someone who is, according to the relational book about languages, a quality time person, and according to another one of those types of know yourself books; I have a fear factor of wasting time. It probably didn’t take reading those books for anyone around me to know that. I want the bottom-line; I want face time with purpose….Hence I do try to move things along by hitting it hard instead of allowing things to unfold as He would. (I shudder to think what I would do if I were a guy with their tendencies to ‘getter done’.) The importance about this nutshell revelation is that He is after relationship and hitting the Rock might get results but not relationship. Speaking to Him and allowing Him to speak into our hearts and spirits is truly what He is after. It is there in the intimacy of the asking and the waiting for the reply that we find out His heart and perhaps that what we were asking is not for this time, or not good for us, or that we are asking way below the mark of what He intends. I do know that many do all they can to get His attention, they get frustrated and strike out against the circumstance as Moshe did. He was frustrated not with Abba but the constant nagging of the people. Perhaps he was frustrated with his own leadership thinking if he could just get the vision to them the way he had gotten it from Abba then they would understand and not be demanding so much stuff. I can say that many times it is my frustration in receiving what I know is from Abba and sharing it with others and they nod and agree and drop it to the ground, later perhaps they come running and need…I really want to smack something, Oy, Abba never let me strike out at what Yeshua the Rock of our salvation had accomplished in order to get the people off my back. Never let me think I can get the water for them or myself by any means other than asking You and trusting You with the provision.
Again, a bottom-line folks, there have been times I’ve wanted to ‘River Dance’ an S-O-S on the Rock instead of just asking Him nothing wavering not even casting around to see if there is something else I can do, just waiting in the shadow of the Rock instead of wearing myself out. There will be times of fasting to come, but for now, for today I feel as if He is saying, ‘Drop the stick, just ask of Me.’
k
Again, a bottom-line folks, there have been times I’ve wanted to ‘River Dance’ an S-O-S on the Rock instead of just asking Him nothing wavering not even casting around to see if there is something else I can do, just waiting in the shadow of the Rock instead of wearing myself out. There will be times of fasting to come, but for now, for today I feel as if He is saying, ‘Drop the stick, just ask of Me.’
k
Monday, June 16, 2008
Reflections On Abba's Day
I want to start this reflection with Friday the 13th, admittedly I didn’t know it was a Friday which had the numeric attachment of 13 on it, till later in the day and for the record let me say traditionally those 13th Fridays have been propitious for me and so I suppose this one would follow that pattern. I had been hearing the wonderful reports about the moves of the Spirit in various places and rejoicing and anticipating our participation in one right here in Va. Abba had been waking me early or rather asking me to rise out of bed early for I rarely sleep much these days, to speak special words of personal love and share snippets of what to anticipate. When Dave called me that morning to report a young man had given him a description of the Spirit’s move in Kentucky I was glad but then I went into a pitiful funk. I cried, wept, moaned… just about any emotional response to intense grief for the deep cry of my heart was, ‘okay, great, they’ve been praying and waiting I suppose, but there is no way they’ve been doing it any more than we have; so bless them but what about us???’ This went on in various forms of intercession for a couple of hours at least. There were periods within that time that I encouraged myself and would suck it up then my heart would spill over again and I would well cry pitifully. Finally I shook myself and apologized to Abba for being so pitiful and ask Him to simply speak to me, anything, it didn’t have to be about the moves going on, the cries of my heart, just speak to me. He gave me Numbers 20:10. I know your first thought might be can any good promise come out of Numbers? Admit it how many of you actually read with anticipation from the book of Numbers? I did not have those thought as I knew Abba is always more than kind to me when I am pitiful. Verse 10 and 11 are talking about Moshe getting ticked and striking the rock when he was suppose to speak to it to bring water out to quench the thirst of the people. My first reaction was ‘Mea Culpa, guilty, I’m blowing it, I’m going to miss the Promise land being cursed to lead the people round and round in the wilderness always dwelling in almost land.’ Thankfully Ruach (the Spirit) is too kind to let me wallow and said ‘will you zip it, I am not condemning you, I’m encouraging you.’ (The Bible I use for my personal words and write in prolifically is a One Year Bible all mixed up and has writings in it, there are many times the writings have been what He wanted me to see more than a Scripture on that page. I pause to say, understand I never use this Bible for devotions or to read from, it is only for prayers asked and answers recorded so I don’t know what the readings have to say. He also told me recently I had to get a new Bible for a new season of words, woo-hoo!) The writing said, Imitate God’s Patience; it begins with saying ‘Note the breaking down at last of the long-tried leader’s patience. It is in striking contrast with the patience of God…’ I skipped to the last part (I didn’t read the middle cause I didn’t feel like He wanted me to since I was ‘getting’ what He was telling me) said, ‘ They who would represent God to men, and win men for God must be ‘imitators of God and walk in love.’ If the bearer of the water of life offers it with ‘Hear, ye rebels.’ It will flow untasted.’ (Alexander Maclaren from Expositions of Holy Scripture)
Ruach told me Abba was sharing His pain, His frustration with the world’s situations with me, while allowing me to see His willingness to wait, His unexcelled patience for the acceptable time. His aim was for me to understand and have His heart. I’ve prayed for Abba’s heart and He has on occasion allowed me to share His pain; if you need a Scriptural reference for that look at Phil. 3:10 joining in the suffering of Yeshua in order to know the power of the resurrection. Abba had thanked me through a prophetic word before for waiting and now was gently encouraging me that to wait past the point I felt was endurable was to really touch His heart and learning a willingness to wait for the fullness of time so ‘none be lost’. Friday the 13th redeemed for me again, sown in tears in the A.M. and reaped in joy the rest of the day.
Saturday morning Ruach prompted me to get up at 5:00, I was staring at a long day ahead of me with a Memorial service to be done, the kids wedding reception and time to spend with my sister Ruby, yet I felt no resistance in rising to meet Him. His encouragement was basically to anticipate something. I say something because He said to put it in words would be to limit/freeze it in my mind so i was just to know He was up to something and anticipate it. The day went well and there were too many occurrences to write about now; but I share these; I had joy in sharing the dance, an opportunity to witness to someone and the ability to see how what could have stressed me in trying to figure out all the details Abba not only had my back but had surrounded me with ease. Writing that reminds me of how He said recently in an early morning tryst that He would dance me through places where other people were struggling to walk; woo-hoo I love dancing!
Now to Abba’s Day, I had taken the couch to give Ruby the chance to rest since I’m up and down all night, laying there around 5 A.M. (what’s up with that hour I don’t know) I was talking to Abba again about why would He even want to create us and what could we possibly give Him especially on Father’s day. I suppose I was trying to get His view of what I could do to please Him. I already had a message to encourage our guys but really wanted to just focus on The Father hence my pondering. He zoomed me back to creation, chaos, Ruach’s hovering, life’s springing forth and man the crown of creation; then He spoke to me and said, ‘Do you know what joy I took when man first called me Abba? When I was not seen as a creative force but became Abba in his eyes?’ I knew then that was what He was after from humanity, it was worth the wait, the patience to have us look up and the joy when for the first time we understood and called Him Abba, and from that moment began to walk in knowing Him as our Father; to see ourselves as His children. It became very evident to me that many of our unanswered questions, of times of striving when it seemed as if He was not near or wasn’t listening, was a call to come closer to the real reason we are here; to know Him beyond the conception of God, to know Him -really know Him- as our Father. I knew then more than ever before that He was willing to do what it took, to endure the death of His only begotten Son even, in order to shatter all the misconceptions, the idolistic ways we have come to see Him, to strip away the façade, to break us if necessary to bring us home. Know this the breaking, the suffering, the length of the process is necessary and we will say with Paul, the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared to the glory revealed in us. Get that, He’s not after just His glory but to reveal the glory in us, His children, His beloved. Roman’s 8:16-21. Come on folks even creation is waiting, groaning for us to get it, for redemption to come as we are revealed as children. I do not take lightly the sufferings of those who have waited, praying for deliverance and have not yet obtained it. I grieve for those who have all but given up hope on their situation or on Abba’s grace; but I speak from experience born in and through pain and much suffering, our Abba loves us so much, please do not judge Him to be uncaring or unresponsive. Do not listen to the enemy of our souls who is seeking our destruction through planting doubts and fears. Abba is forming His heart in us, our identification with Hem is not easy nor is it a swift work but it is more than worth the sacrifice. He is refusing at this juncture when we are so close to the end to allow us to have misconceptions about Him so He is intent upon doing what it takes to tear down mindsets and limits we’ve placed upon our relationship to Him, to restore the right way to see Him.
Sunday He brought me to Numbers again this time chapter 11 starting with verse 23. Moshe has been talking to Abba about the burden being too heavy having to deal with all the people, Abba agrees to allow him to share the responsibility with 70 elders to deal with the people in judgment etc. Abba then answers the complaint of the people about eating meat telling Moshe the people would eat meat tomorrow and in fact all month long till they spewed it out their mouths. Moshe is in a quandary about how to supply the meat for so many people. (just like us Abba gives a promise and we think we’ve got to figure out how we can get it done). Now to verse 23 Abba asked Moshe does he think He is limited, and tells Him now he would see if what He had told him was true or not. When I read Sunday Abba was not limited and the proceeding dispersion of the Spirit upon the 70 plus 2 I was ecstatic. It’s the plus 2 that I absolutely love cause this goes with what Abba’s been showing me for a long-long time. I keep telling people that I want/see/feel that this last days move will be one where the glory of Abba rest so among His people that it won’t be said, ‘go get___to pray for you they have the gift of healing, they have the gift of prophecy.’ But that the presence of Abba is so strong in our midst that a child could walk up to a crippled one and say ‘Yeshua’, and bang, healing, a prophetic word….I feel it’s supposed to be a revival of everyone not a few leaders who have the Spirit and you must go to them. Bottom-line, if He’s here then He’s doing it and the vessel doesn’t matter. Call it Abba-spillage, He sends the Spirit upon the 70 and the excess hits the heart of two guys who are willing to open their mouths and go for it. I believe that we will see Moshe’s desire/prayer from verse 29 fulfilled. He asked if the tattle tails were worried about his reputation when they report that some guys in the camp are prophesying and then says, ‘Oh, that all the Lord’s people were prophets and that the Lord would put His Spirit upon them’!
Oy Vey, Abba always intended for His Spirit to be restored to all not just a few, for any who would come to drink of the water of life. Let the children come, let the aged, the dejected, the downhearted, come and drink and find restored strength. Put away questions from the past, disappointments and say to disillusion, I will see clearly, the truth, I will not listen to the lies of the enemy nor the discouragement of the flesh, If you have said, ‘there is no God,’ you are closer than you think to seeing Him as He really is. If you have said, He won’t use me, I’ve been wrong about too many things, Moshe tried murder to get the job done and was still given the job to lead the people out of bondage. If you say, ‘who am I?’ Eldad means God has loved, Medad, means loving affection. You may have been outside the inner circle, in the midst of the camp just going about daily busyness but Abba has plans, He loves, He is not discouraged, He has not turned from you, with loving affection, He plans to restore His Spirit in you and you will find that those dreams long lost, those in peril right now are as nothing compared to the dreams He dreams for you.
When I sat down to write I had no idea where Abba would take this beyond a recounting of what I had in my mind to share. While writing I had my ipod playing and the Martyr’s Song came on. I love that song; I’ve been to the Martyr’s field in my spirit and danced there before I ever heard anyone else having an experience there. So it is appropriate that I end this with Monday’s ‘spillage’ the words to the song say:
Sing oh son of Zion, shout oh child of mine, rejoice with all your heart and soul and mind. I’ve been waiting to dance with you in fields full of colors you’ve never seen. I’ve been waiting, to show you the beauty you’ve never dreamed that’s always been in you. And I’ve been waiting, to see you tremble as you’re embraced by a world saturated with My love. I’ve been waiting, for the day when last I got to say, My child you are finally home. I’ve been waiting, to watch you realize what all your longing is for. I’ve been waiting, to show you the thread of grace that ran through all your pain, and I’ve been waiting to let you drink the water of which the greatest joy on earth is just a taste…every tear you cried dried in the palm of My hand, every lonely hour was by My side, every love one, lost every river crossed, every moment, every hour was pointing to this day, I’ve been longing for this day .I’ve been waiting…
Written by Ted Agnew
Imitate the patience of Abba, have His heart, for you have captured His heart and He is not willing to let go!
love, one of Abba’s kids,
k
Ruach told me Abba was sharing His pain, His frustration with the world’s situations with me, while allowing me to see His willingness to wait, His unexcelled patience for the acceptable time. His aim was for me to understand and have His heart. I’ve prayed for Abba’s heart and He has on occasion allowed me to share His pain; if you need a Scriptural reference for that look at Phil. 3:10 joining in the suffering of Yeshua in order to know the power of the resurrection. Abba had thanked me through a prophetic word before for waiting and now was gently encouraging me that to wait past the point I felt was endurable was to really touch His heart and learning a willingness to wait for the fullness of time so ‘none be lost’. Friday the 13th redeemed for me again, sown in tears in the A.M. and reaped in joy the rest of the day.
Saturday morning Ruach prompted me to get up at 5:00, I was staring at a long day ahead of me with a Memorial service to be done, the kids wedding reception and time to spend with my sister Ruby, yet I felt no resistance in rising to meet Him. His encouragement was basically to anticipate something. I say something because He said to put it in words would be to limit/freeze it in my mind so i was just to know He was up to something and anticipate it. The day went well and there were too many occurrences to write about now; but I share these; I had joy in sharing the dance, an opportunity to witness to someone and the ability to see how what could have stressed me in trying to figure out all the details Abba not only had my back but had surrounded me with ease. Writing that reminds me of how He said recently in an early morning tryst that He would dance me through places where other people were struggling to walk; woo-hoo I love dancing!
Now to Abba’s Day, I had taken the couch to give Ruby the chance to rest since I’m up and down all night, laying there around 5 A.M. (what’s up with that hour I don’t know) I was talking to Abba again about why would He even want to create us and what could we possibly give Him especially on Father’s day. I suppose I was trying to get His view of what I could do to please Him. I already had a message to encourage our guys but really wanted to just focus on The Father hence my pondering. He zoomed me back to creation, chaos, Ruach’s hovering, life’s springing forth and man the crown of creation; then He spoke to me and said, ‘Do you know what joy I took when man first called me Abba? When I was not seen as a creative force but became Abba in his eyes?’ I knew then that was what He was after from humanity, it was worth the wait, the patience to have us look up and the joy when for the first time we understood and called Him Abba, and from that moment began to walk in knowing Him as our Father; to see ourselves as His children. It became very evident to me that many of our unanswered questions, of times of striving when it seemed as if He was not near or wasn’t listening, was a call to come closer to the real reason we are here; to know Him beyond the conception of God, to know Him -really know Him- as our Father. I knew then more than ever before that He was willing to do what it took, to endure the death of His only begotten Son even, in order to shatter all the misconceptions, the idolistic ways we have come to see Him, to strip away the façade, to break us if necessary to bring us home. Know this the breaking, the suffering, the length of the process is necessary and we will say with Paul, the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared to the glory revealed in us. Get that, He’s not after just His glory but to reveal the glory in us, His children, His beloved. Roman’s 8:16-21. Come on folks even creation is waiting, groaning for us to get it, for redemption to come as we are revealed as children. I do not take lightly the sufferings of those who have waited, praying for deliverance and have not yet obtained it. I grieve for those who have all but given up hope on their situation or on Abba’s grace; but I speak from experience born in and through pain and much suffering, our Abba loves us so much, please do not judge Him to be uncaring or unresponsive. Do not listen to the enemy of our souls who is seeking our destruction through planting doubts and fears. Abba is forming His heart in us, our identification with Hem is not easy nor is it a swift work but it is more than worth the sacrifice. He is refusing at this juncture when we are so close to the end to allow us to have misconceptions about Him so He is intent upon doing what it takes to tear down mindsets and limits we’ve placed upon our relationship to Him, to restore the right way to see Him.
Sunday He brought me to Numbers again this time chapter 11 starting with verse 23. Moshe has been talking to Abba about the burden being too heavy having to deal with all the people, Abba agrees to allow him to share the responsibility with 70 elders to deal with the people in judgment etc. Abba then answers the complaint of the people about eating meat telling Moshe the people would eat meat tomorrow and in fact all month long till they spewed it out their mouths. Moshe is in a quandary about how to supply the meat for so many people. (just like us Abba gives a promise and we think we’ve got to figure out how we can get it done). Now to verse 23 Abba asked Moshe does he think He is limited, and tells Him now he would see if what He had told him was true or not. When I read Sunday Abba was not limited and the proceeding dispersion of the Spirit upon the 70 plus 2 I was ecstatic. It’s the plus 2 that I absolutely love cause this goes with what Abba’s been showing me for a long-long time. I keep telling people that I want/see/feel that this last days move will be one where the glory of Abba rest so among His people that it won’t be said, ‘go get___to pray for you they have the gift of healing, they have the gift of prophecy.’ But that the presence of Abba is so strong in our midst that a child could walk up to a crippled one and say ‘Yeshua’, and bang, healing, a prophetic word….I feel it’s supposed to be a revival of everyone not a few leaders who have the Spirit and you must go to them. Bottom-line, if He’s here then He’s doing it and the vessel doesn’t matter. Call it Abba-spillage, He sends the Spirit upon the 70 and the excess hits the heart of two guys who are willing to open their mouths and go for it. I believe that we will see Moshe’s desire/prayer from verse 29 fulfilled. He asked if the tattle tails were worried about his reputation when they report that some guys in the camp are prophesying and then says, ‘Oh, that all the Lord’s people were prophets and that the Lord would put His Spirit upon them’!
Oy Vey, Abba always intended for His Spirit to be restored to all not just a few, for any who would come to drink of the water of life. Let the children come, let the aged, the dejected, the downhearted, come and drink and find restored strength. Put away questions from the past, disappointments and say to disillusion, I will see clearly, the truth, I will not listen to the lies of the enemy nor the discouragement of the flesh, If you have said, ‘there is no God,’ you are closer than you think to seeing Him as He really is. If you have said, He won’t use me, I’ve been wrong about too many things, Moshe tried murder to get the job done and was still given the job to lead the people out of bondage. If you say, ‘who am I?’ Eldad means God has loved, Medad, means loving affection. You may have been outside the inner circle, in the midst of the camp just going about daily busyness but Abba has plans, He loves, He is not discouraged, He has not turned from you, with loving affection, He plans to restore His Spirit in you and you will find that those dreams long lost, those in peril right now are as nothing compared to the dreams He dreams for you.
When I sat down to write I had no idea where Abba would take this beyond a recounting of what I had in my mind to share. While writing I had my ipod playing and the Martyr’s Song came on. I love that song; I’ve been to the Martyr’s field in my spirit and danced there before I ever heard anyone else having an experience there. So it is appropriate that I end this with Monday’s ‘spillage’ the words to the song say:
Sing oh son of Zion, shout oh child of mine, rejoice with all your heart and soul and mind. I’ve been waiting to dance with you in fields full of colors you’ve never seen. I’ve been waiting, to show you the beauty you’ve never dreamed that’s always been in you. And I’ve been waiting, to see you tremble as you’re embraced by a world saturated with My love. I’ve been waiting, for the day when last I got to say, My child you are finally home. I’ve been waiting, to watch you realize what all your longing is for. I’ve been waiting, to show you the thread of grace that ran through all your pain, and I’ve been waiting to let you drink the water of which the greatest joy on earth is just a taste…every tear you cried dried in the palm of My hand, every lonely hour was by My side, every love one, lost every river crossed, every moment, every hour was pointing to this day, I’ve been longing for this day .I’ve been waiting…
Written by Ted Agnew
Imitate the patience of Abba, have His heart, for you have captured His heart and He is not willing to let go!
love, one of Abba’s kids,
k
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Holy Heart Burn
Sunday during my hubby’s excellent message I was praying in the Spirit (I assured him I was listening even though I was praying audibly in tongues); and I distinctly heard the Spirit say, Holy Heart burn, look for it. I knew He was speaking of the two on the road to Emmaus who didn’t realize that Yeshua was walking with them as they went along the road to conduct their normal business. (Luke 24:13)
A little backdrop, the ladies had come back from an empty tomb and an angelic encounter, to tell the guys that Yeshua was risen and according to Luke it seemed like foolishness and they did not believe them. Peter did go to check it out but came back still unconvinced for Luke says he came back wondering what was up. Next a couple of the guys were going to Emmaus and were discussing the events trying to find a reasonable answer and behold Yeshua came near them. The kicker is they didn’t know it was Him. Can you imagine Cleophas’ chagrin later after finding out it was Yeshua who walked with him in that he had actually accused Him of being ignorant of what had been taking place? Oy Vey, Yeshua who had the only first hand experience of all that was going on as well as the spiritual understanding of it all, was being told basically that He was obviously a stranger to not know what had been going on. Pause in the Scriptural description, have we not also been guilty of accusing Yeshua of the same thing? We are going through perplexing times, stressing times, times of life and death for some of us and we have the audacity to ask Abba where He’s been? Or perhaps Ruach (the Spirit) comes with a word of grace and glory and we ask, ‘do You know what’s going on in my life, have You seen the state of the economy….” If Ruach were factious He might say, ‘Yo, We know everything, We are in control of everything, nothing has slipped up on Us. We are not having a strategic planning session due to changed circumstances to decide how to proceed from here. Our plans are right on track! Now you need to get with the program’. Actually He does speak to me in such a tone many times and I love it that He does what I call ‘nowspeak’ He uses crazy vernacular to really get my attention.
Okay, on the road again (all right, I couldn’t resist that fun pun) Yeshua plays along with them and ask what ‘things’ they are talking about. Arghh, they tell Him that a great prophet who they thought was ‘the One’ who was going to redeem Israel had been killed and now there were crazy rumors from the ladies that claimed to have talked to angels who said that He was alive. They then told Him some of them had at least been curious enough to go check it out and sure enough He wasn’t there but they didn’t see Him. I personally am extremely glad that He stopped them then lest they go from ignorant reasoning of the human kind to actual blasphemy. Have we not also been guilty at times of saying something along the lines of, ‘I thought God said that He was going to…I thought He would help me out of this situation, I thought I could depend on Him to help me out of this but it looks like I will have to do it myself…’ Note that Yeshua called them fools and slow of heart; I think the slow of heart is important for they had been trying to reason things out and had left out the heart part out of the equation. Our heart is extremely important in this journey on this road to Abba, it is written that we must guard our heart for it is the issuance of life (Prov. 4:23). Dave’s message contained the Scripture from Roman’s 10:9-10, with the heart one believes... (told ya I was listening); hence Yeshua was pointing out to them that by being slow in heart, they were slow to believe what the prophets had said concerning Messiah. This slow of heart had made them foolish (unwise). This should cause us great pause in the fact it is the ‘foolish virgin’s’ lack of preparing for His coming that causes them to find themselves on the wrong side of the door.
I find many believers who are preparing for the economic down turn, for college tuition for kids, for retirement, for vacations, for….(fill in the blank) but I don’t often hear them preparing for His coming!!!! Don’t be foolish, He is coming, and may I say, sooner than later.
Yeshua continued to expound to them in length the ‘proofs’ about Messiah leaving no doubt that He had fulfilled them all. They still did not know Him at this time but knew that this ‘Man’ was on to something and it appeared that He was going further down the road than they were so they pressed Him to stay where they wanted to stop. Isn’t that always what it seems like is happening, He is on the move and we want to stop and camp out for a bit and have Him hang out where we are instead of finding out where He is going? He is gracious and goes in to bless their meal and then they suddenly know it was Him and bang, He disappears from their sight. Suddenly they acknowledged the Holy Heartburn, their hearts had burned while He was opening up the Scripture to them but now He was gone, too late to worship Him while He was with them on the road so they did the only thing they could think of; they returned to the original scene of great occurrence (Jerusalem) and found the eleven and told them what had happened only to be told that Peter had seen Him as well. Now the really cool part is Yeshua is not like us getting ticked off that we miss out on some of the most important times of close encounters, nor does He hold grudges at constantly having to explain to them/us that He really does know what’s up and is in control. Nope, He shows up again!!
Oy, Oy, Oy, I wish I could say they were overjoyed and had a woo-hoo time and rejoiced at seeing Him but alas and alack (their lack and ours) they got freaked. Actually they were terrified cause they thought they saw a spirit. He showed them proof of life or rather death in the scars but they still stood shell shocked the Scripture says with joy and did not believe. I suppose it means they thought it was too good to be true. He asked for food to eat in front of them and dispel the notion that He was merely a spirit.
Without going further in my accounting of the story, let me finish by saying. He said Sunday, Holy Heartburn, look for it. Don’t miss His presence this week for any cause, not by reasoning out things, not by thinking no way this is too good to be true, not because you expected Him to do something and He didn’t do that thing, and no matter how ‘freaky’ the encounter might seem don’t be afraid especially when He says, ‘Peace be to you.’ Prick up your ears, prepare for this encounter, pray for the scales to fall off your eyes, put away your expectations of how, when and where and anticipate this heartburn and at the least hint of warmth in the heart area, embrace Him.
k
A little backdrop, the ladies had come back from an empty tomb and an angelic encounter, to tell the guys that Yeshua was risen and according to Luke it seemed like foolishness and they did not believe them. Peter did go to check it out but came back still unconvinced for Luke says he came back wondering what was up. Next a couple of the guys were going to Emmaus and were discussing the events trying to find a reasonable answer and behold Yeshua came near them. The kicker is they didn’t know it was Him. Can you imagine Cleophas’ chagrin later after finding out it was Yeshua who walked with him in that he had actually accused Him of being ignorant of what had been taking place? Oy Vey, Yeshua who had the only first hand experience of all that was going on as well as the spiritual understanding of it all, was being told basically that He was obviously a stranger to not know what had been going on. Pause in the Scriptural description, have we not also been guilty of accusing Yeshua of the same thing? We are going through perplexing times, stressing times, times of life and death for some of us and we have the audacity to ask Abba where He’s been? Or perhaps Ruach (the Spirit) comes with a word of grace and glory and we ask, ‘do You know what’s going on in my life, have You seen the state of the economy….” If Ruach were factious He might say, ‘Yo, We know everything, We are in control of everything, nothing has slipped up on Us. We are not having a strategic planning session due to changed circumstances to decide how to proceed from here. Our plans are right on track! Now you need to get with the program’. Actually He does speak to me in such a tone many times and I love it that He does what I call ‘nowspeak’ He uses crazy vernacular to really get my attention.
Okay, on the road again (all right, I couldn’t resist that fun pun) Yeshua plays along with them and ask what ‘things’ they are talking about. Arghh, they tell Him that a great prophet who they thought was ‘the One’ who was going to redeem Israel had been killed and now there were crazy rumors from the ladies that claimed to have talked to angels who said that He was alive. They then told Him some of them had at least been curious enough to go check it out and sure enough He wasn’t there but they didn’t see Him. I personally am extremely glad that He stopped them then lest they go from ignorant reasoning of the human kind to actual blasphemy. Have we not also been guilty at times of saying something along the lines of, ‘I thought God said that He was going to…I thought He would help me out of this situation, I thought I could depend on Him to help me out of this but it looks like I will have to do it myself…’ Note that Yeshua called them fools and slow of heart; I think the slow of heart is important for they had been trying to reason things out and had left out the heart part out of the equation. Our heart is extremely important in this journey on this road to Abba, it is written that we must guard our heart for it is the issuance of life (Prov. 4:23). Dave’s message contained the Scripture from Roman’s 10:9-10, with the heart one believes... (told ya I was listening); hence Yeshua was pointing out to them that by being slow in heart, they were slow to believe what the prophets had said concerning Messiah. This slow of heart had made them foolish (unwise). This should cause us great pause in the fact it is the ‘foolish virgin’s’ lack of preparing for His coming that causes them to find themselves on the wrong side of the door.
I find many believers who are preparing for the economic down turn, for college tuition for kids, for retirement, for vacations, for….(fill in the blank) but I don’t often hear them preparing for His coming!!!! Don’t be foolish, He is coming, and may I say, sooner than later.
Yeshua continued to expound to them in length the ‘proofs’ about Messiah leaving no doubt that He had fulfilled them all. They still did not know Him at this time but knew that this ‘Man’ was on to something and it appeared that He was going further down the road than they were so they pressed Him to stay where they wanted to stop. Isn’t that always what it seems like is happening, He is on the move and we want to stop and camp out for a bit and have Him hang out where we are instead of finding out where He is going? He is gracious and goes in to bless their meal and then they suddenly know it was Him and bang, He disappears from their sight. Suddenly they acknowledged the Holy Heartburn, their hearts had burned while He was opening up the Scripture to them but now He was gone, too late to worship Him while He was with them on the road so they did the only thing they could think of; they returned to the original scene of great occurrence (Jerusalem) and found the eleven and told them what had happened only to be told that Peter had seen Him as well. Now the really cool part is Yeshua is not like us getting ticked off that we miss out on some of the most important times of close encounters, nor does He hold grudges at constantly having to explain to them/us that He really does know what’s up and is in control. Nope, He shows up again!!
Oy, Oy, Oy, I wish I could say they were overjoyed and had a woo-hoo time and rejoiced at seeing Him but alas and alack (their lack and ours) they got freaked. Actually they were terrified cause they thought they saw a spirit. He showed them proof of life or rather death in the scars but they still stood shell shocked the Scripture says with joy and did not believe. I suppose it means they thought it was too good to be true. He asked for food to eat in front of them and dispel the notion that He was merely a spirit.
Without going further in my accounting of the story, let me finish by saying. He said Sunday, Holy Heartburn, look for it. Don’t miss His presence this week for any cause, not by reasoning out things, not by thinking no way this is too good to be true, not because you expected Him to do something and He didn’t do that thing, and no matter how ‘freaky’ the encounter might seem don’t be afraid especially when He says, ‘Peace be to you.’ Prick up your ears, prepare for this encounter, pray for the scales to fall off your eyes, put away your expectations of how, when and where and anticipate this heartburn and at the least hint of warmth in the heart area, embrace Him.
k
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